On a fresh September afternoon, covered by a shiny powder of sun
falling through the clouds on the coast, River looked Ocean in the
eyes: "Your greatness, I'm just a tiny river like all of us, so many on
the planet. Every day I flow into you, yet every day on the journey I
miss you. All rivers want to be oceans. Is there anything You would
wish to be?" Silence.
River, listening to the cold wind that blew fiercely, said to herself:
one day, I will remember that forgotten wisdom. She didn't know what
that wisdom was, but she had faith, and kept flowing. At times River
was
wondering why her way was this one, why the line she was drawing on earth
was so precise. She then remembered something called destiny and saw
her borders all along the way. At other times, when she could raise up
in the sky like a bird, she could see how tiny she was at the source,
how powerful on the path and how full of memories towards the end. The
end was not an end, she saw, but a melting with Ocean. Rare were the
moments she could raise her spirit that high. Mostly she was caught in
dizzy vibes, slipping quickly between sharp stones or caressing round
ones, or stuck in a slum, sleepy pond, where people came to wash their
bodies or to play. Back home at the source, she could hear stones
falling down the mountain. The great mountain had an age too; he still
had long to live and yet, he had an age. On her course, she was mostly
chatting with the wind, asking him to take her again on his wings, as
she so much liked to see her body from a distance.
Feeling and seeing were two different things, she noticed. Feeling was
there to show her the different taste of each moment. Even though she
knew she was the same in nature, she felt different here and there, as
she always melted some bits of the road into her being. Seeing would
only happen when Wind was kind enough to take her up with him, so that
she could see both her source and the place where she was heading at.
There is still something, she noticed, something different from seeing,
different from feeling; something that made her ask the wind to take
her up, something that made the wind decide to lift her, something that
carried the memory of the taste of her source through the journey,
something that reminded her the taste of melting with Ocean, and all
the moments in between, past or still to come. And that something she
didn't know how to call. Not everything needs a name to be called upon,
she decided. Everything that had a name was a reflection of something,
and the name itself was part of that reflection.
Tired by this much thinking, River got down to her benches and returned
to indulging the awareness of feeling - the fish, the stones, the
humans, the birds, the wind, a brother river joining in. The moon was
rising, bright and warm like a banana pancake soaked in thick honey.
River fell asleep smiling at her fantasy and her waters kept rolling,
not caring much whether River was asleep or awake.
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